forgive n forget

Everything happened in our life come with many reasons. Sometimes we realise it but we deny and ignore it. But in the end we have to accept the fact.

Yes..everyone made mistakes in their life. And the biggest fear is when they made mistakes towards us. Mistakes that we have to forgive and forget. Most of people prefer to forgive and forget it but some just cannot.

This issue i want to relate with relationship. I am sure a lot of people being cheat by love ones,right? It is hurt. And it sucks cos you being betrayed by the one that you trust. I been through that. But how if we still have feeling to them but in same time kinda annoying when they keep in front of us ?.....

Seriously, i been thinking how did certain people can forgive after what their partner betrayed them????? ITS REALLY TAKES COURAGE FOR SOMEONE TO DO..I ADMIRED PERSON LIKE THAT.if you one of them,you should proud of yourself now.

And i came out with this point which i dont know where did it comes from..i feel like when someone you love cheat on you or betrayed....you can forgive n forget what they did....you have to be very sure about your feeling first. It is you the one will decide whether you want to forgive or not..but you have to discipline yourself once you made that decision. If you willing to forgive,you gotta let yourself to forget their mistakes. Then, you will slowly forget what their faults. 

Sometimes i think that when someone can forget the past mistakes , it means they believe their partner can be better than that. And they know what true colour of their partner. Why??? Because sometimes we make mistakes not just for selfishness but things we cant escape of. From mistakes,we learn how to fix and start all over again. Thats how we find the happy ending,right? Hehe...





Seal and love,
Jesicachloe. 

WHEN HE OR SHE CONTROL YOUR CIRCLE

Oh gosh gosh! This is my first post for early 2014..(obviously im not taking care of my blog) haha!

BUT, it's not the point now..what i want to share is about how i reflect my past relationship with someone (hmm..not mention the name )

It was a long time before, i was stucked in relationship where i can't let myself out of it. Each day i was so depressed and dissapointed because being CONTROL of what i want to do, think and anything in the world ( sounds wtf, right ).

Yeah, i was being control enough. Everything I want to do, I have to think about he's gonna say to me. Uh! I been through all of it. People out there, if you have the same situation like me, sure you understand.

Then, today i found this qoutes and " wink " wink", i have the point to say in my blog (hehe)

I have the thought why certain couple want to conquer their partner in everything. They started to control in what their partner do in everyday. Until at one point, they will get obsess and become more aggresive. This moment when the victim will feel insecure, fed up and so on.

I've been through that so i can understand how does it felt to whom might read this post. WHY? WHY? ...............................................................

Here, what i thought.

• They still can't rid off their past relationship ( maybe they used to be a victim )
• Insecure feeling to their partner ( such as dilemma whether to love sincerely or it is just temporary love feeling ) because the partner MIGHT LEAVE THEM SOON OR LATER. AN OTHER THOUGHT CAME OUT "Ohhh! How im going survive without him or her "
• Lack of trust !!!!.. This issue most of couple might forget when they are so obsess to control their partner. They do not understand, listen and interpret what their couples try to explain when it comes to discussion. Why? because they do not let THE TRUST lead them to be rational
• AND the most thing : They refuse to trust themselves at the FIRST PLACE. They don't want to make themselves trust what their rational mind want to. The result is that they become lack of confidence and lead to keep find their couple's mistakes ALL THE TIME.

Maybe some of my points makes you feel ( annoying ). It is just my mind want speak about. Whatever we do, please try to give space to yourself and partner to understand both freedom. I guess when you do understand both freedom, you will really try to give them limitless freedom as long as it makes them HAPPY. 

Seal and Love,
Jessica Chloe.

Unconditional again!!!

I think a year ago i posted one of my poems called " Unconditional Love ". It is about how i feel about LOVE. And  a couple days ago, I look up for songs in Youtube but then suddenly i saw this new song from Katy Perry " Unconditionally " !!!. Oh my my! She has one song that relate to my poem....Now, I am so into this touching song! Keep rewinding in my playlist whooffff!

In addition, the song reminds me to appreciate the person that we love now. In relationship, there's no such thing like fairytales love story, korean cute dramas and so on ( saya tak benci cerita love story ,okayyyy). Everyday couples will face so many difficulties in life. Mourning, sighs, weeping are COMMON..Its basically reflect on how we try to understand every problems that we have to face.

The person that we love now is the person why you want have in EVERYDAY DIARY. You always try to make them in bad or great in your days until one point you realise that they really change you alot ( but in positive way lah ). It is amazing when you are so feel so BLESSED to have them in your life. Now, when you feel that way, I am sure you will feel how lucky you are to have someone that you always love now and then.

For me, the person that we hold on is the one we are 100 % believe in. I have the person that i can always turn to. In days, of course both of us struggles to make better day for each other. After what happened in our relationship, still I look up for him. He's been a long time in my life. I couldn't change that ( :) )....( butterflies ) hehe....

I think I just stop writing now, It is enough how's special he is in my heart hehe...And to the viewers, just care the person that you love now..

Wonderful voices! I love Josh Groban

Everyday it is tough for us!

If yesterday we laugh at each other
Today we argue about some issues
Tomorrow we seek for forgiveness
And the day after tomorrow we start over again

Sometimes I think is it cycle of our love?
We hate,love and miss all the time
Sometimes its just getting annoying
But, we never want to end it.

I know it is hard to put your heart
Your heart together in our moment
I believe you keep trying
Because its worth when you're back
To fix what's broken before.

 

Love and Seal,

Jessica Chloe.

Do you see?

Many things happened in my current life. I have move to another big chapter in my life.

A few months ago, I was nothing because I just stay and doing nothing. Haha ! It is because I was jobless person   kuang3

Now, I thank you for the cherish I receive from Him..

 

Being a teacher is a wonderful job that happen in my life.. I've seen many type of student at school. Through them, I learn and understand their feeling and thinking. It is really amazing how we can understand what the small kids react.

It is tough to handle the job sometime, but every job have it's risk, right? Everyone will feel miserable, stress and many negative thoughts. It is why we have to train ourselves to adapt in variety of obstacle.

Hope you can understand what i try to say about this proficiency. Take and enjoy every job that we have now..:)))

Seal and Love,

Jessica Chloe

My HABIT

There's one habit wish i think the good one. If i go anywhere, i will bring a little notebook so that i can jot down important things..I tend to forget things esspecially what people ask me to remember..I can't help it..

So, to solve my problems...I always bring my little notebook..That's become my habit though..

It helps me to memorise what I have to remember and mores..So, those who has the same problem like me, you should do the same..Tak payah malu untuk tulis depan orang ramai hehe..

What's life could it be?

Helooooo...........

I just thought about MY BLOG..wow! I almost forgot about my blog. Busy with my reality life makes me forget about my favret blogy hehe..

Anyway, recently I just thinking about what's my future would be? I dont have job right now, waiting for my convo, unstable financial, what else? Ohhhh! almost wanna hide it : I am still SINGLE haha! 

What's my life would be later??????...............................

When I saw this qoute, I remembered something about it. The man I loved with. I used to say " I love you sweetheart" , " He's important than anything from now on", " I knew he's the ONE that I be with".  

Well, this man caught my heart since i saw him. I knew I'm going to love him more than he could imagine. I did ! I love him from the moment I saw his eyes. 

Now, I still don't get why I still cant love anybody...I've been searching for that answer but nothing...

I guess I could only wait till I know what it is all about.

Seal and Love,

Chloe.

Psst Secret :P

Secret I have to tell yah :)))

POEMS...
I wrote, created so many poems (not more than 200 actually haha) when I feel like happy, sad, lonely, or anything could be.

I will write about how's am thinking, how i feel and so on..Most of my poems based on my experiences. Well, if you heard about Taylor Swift on how she express her relationship in songs, that's kind things i done hehe..BUT,im not into songs ( Im not into song writer or singer)..

Sometimes I don't want to talk about my feeling to people, writing poems really got me into this! I don't have to talk but I will write..That's help me to calm actually..

So, once you come into my life, you could be one of my written poems hehe..

Seal and love,
Jessica Chloe.

Do we?

Where are we now?
Are we suppose to speak?
Do we have to keep watching?
My mind just cant do anything.

I won't walk away
I won't speak anymore
I keep in silence
Because I know it is worth now

But...
Will you do that ?
Do you dare to do that?
It's just you and will be you though.

I have nothing -,-

Have you watch The Voice Season 3?

Well...I gotta say this, Im kinda love Devyn Deloera's performance on knock out..She sang 'I have nothing' by Whitney Houston.

I love her singing. She's really feel the song!! Congrats Devyn :D

Tak sanggup lagi - ROSSA

Setelah sekian lama baru aku menyadari

Mengapa ku selalu menahan rasa sakitku

Ingin ku hapus saja semua dendam ini

Tapi rasa tak mungkin lagi 

Chorus

Biarkan ku pergi karena aku tak sanggup lagi

Mengingat semua kenangan dulu di saat engkau menyakitiku

Mengapa semua terjadi di saat kau mulai menyadari

Semua kesalahanmu padaku tapi ku tak sanggup lagi

Ku akui sekarang engkau mulai berubah

Namun rasa sakitku terlalu dalam ‘tuk terobati

Ingin ku hapus saja semua,semua dendam ini

Tapi rasa tak mungkin lagi

Ulang chorus

(Biarkan ku pergi) biarkan diriku yang pergi

(Karena aku tak sanggup lagi) karena ku tak sanggup lagi

Mengingat semua kenangan dulu di saat engkau menyakitiku

Mengapa semua terjadi di saat kau mulai menyadari

Semua kesalahanmu padaku tapi ku tak sanggup

Tapi ku tak sanggup lagi

Translation in English

After a long time I just realised

Why do I always resist my pain

I just wanna remove all of this revenge

But it's no longer possible 

chorus :

Let me go because I cannot stand no more

Remembered all the memories when you hurt me

Why it's all happened at a time when you started to realise

Your mistakes to me but I cannot stand anymore

I admit that you are change now

But my pain is too deep to be cured

 I just wanna remove all of this revenge

Repeat chorus

Let me go because I cannot stand no more 

Remembered all the memories when you hurt me

Why it's all happened at a time when you started to realise

Your mistakes to me but I cannot stand anymore

Top list of my sentimental song :)

"If I Ain't Got You" - Alicia Keys

Some people live for the fortune
Some people live just for the fame
Some people live for the power, yeah
Some people live just to play the game
Some people think that the physical things
Define what's within
And I've been there before
But that life's a bore
So full of the superficial

[Chorus:]
Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you, Yeah

Some people search for a fountain
That promises forever young
Some people need three dozen roses
And that's the only way to prove you love them
Hand me the world on a silver platter
And what good would it be
With no one to share
With no one who truly cares for me

[Chorus:]
Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you, you, you
Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you, yeah

[Outro:]
If I ain't got you with me baby
So nothing in this whole wide world don't mean a thing
If I ain't got you with me baby

"" Back in high school, this song always put me into loneliness feeling. Its really takes my feeling away...I just wish if we could turned the time again, I guess i already have everything with him'''''''

Dear Love but not love.

Dear,
Love but not lover.

I am here to make my words seem clear to you. I am sure that you may understand what I said to you before. I let you try to make me be YOUR LOVE ONE (i guess opps!) but don't give too much hope.

To win my heart it is NOT EASY. I don't know how to put my words but it's gonna be hard for you to try. It's not I wanna things hard but I am not a girl that melted with butterflies word. It's up to you. I made my words clearly, I guess.

If you read this, please don't said that I am too proud about myself.( you have no right to judge me either ). 

I'm not saying that I am the tough, rough or some kind Resident Evil's heroin haha! But I just being honest to you.

So, think twice honeyyyy.

Love and Seal,
Jessica Chloe.

Next would be OCTOBER =,,=

I always hope something NICE, AWESOME AND SPECIAL when it comes to new month.

This month would be the last FULL month for my for studies haha! I just can't wait to finish all of entire study stuff. The files, assignment = ass, EXAMS, research, and more to come. The main point, I can't wait for the ending hua hua hua!!!

Love and seal,
Jessica Chloe.

Lirik Lagu Bunga Citra Lestari -

Lirik Lagu Bunga Citra Lestari -

 Karena Kucinta Kau 

Jika ada yang bilang ku lupa kau

Jangan kau dengar
Jika ada yang bilang ku tak setia
Jangan kau dengar

Banyak cinta yang datang mendekat
Ku menolak
Semua itu karena ku cinta kau

Jika ada yang bilang ku tak baik
Jangan kau dengar
Jika ada yang bilang ku berubah
Jangan kau dengar

Banyak cinta yang datang mendekat
Ku menolak
Semua itu karena ku cinta kau
Kau

Reff:
Saat kau ingat aku ku ingat kau
Saat kau rindu aku juga rasa
Ku tahu kau slalu ingin denganku
Ku lakukan yang terbaik yang bisa ku lakukan
Tuhan yang tahu ku cinta kau

Jika kau tak percaya pada ku
Sakitnya aku
Jika kau lebih dengar mereka
Sedih hatiku
Banyak cinta yang datang mendekat
Ku menolak
Semua itu karena ku cinta kau
Kau

Back to Reff:

Saat kau ingat aku ku ingat kau
Saat kau rindu aku juga rasa
Ku tahu kau slalu ingin denganku
Kau tahu ku juga ingin denganmu
Ku tahu kau slalu ingin denganku
Ku lakukan yang terbaik yang bisa ku lakukan
Tuhan yang tahu ku cinta kau

THIS SONG DEDICATE TO A PERSON THAT I LOVE THE MOST. I CAN'T GIVE HIS SPECIFIC NAME BUT HE'S LOVER OF MY LIFE. MY LOVE FOR HIM NEVER CHANGE. I LOVE HIM FOR A LONG TIME. OUR RELATIONSHIP MAY NOT EASY LIKE OTHERS BUT THAT'S MAKE US STRONG AND MATURED. IT IS SOMETHING THAT I HOLD TO. THINGS NOT ALWAYS WORK IN OUR PLAN BUT I KNOW GOD HAS THE BEST PLAN FOR ME AND HIM. AMEN.

Inspiration for me =,,=

At 25, I wrote a list of 60 qualities that I wanted in a husband, including his height, school and favourite pastime. I submitted the list to God and asked Him to bring me the right person at the proper time.

Two years later, I attended a church-sponsored retreat at an island resort. Keen on making the right priorities, I told God that I want to be shielded from all distractions in the meantime. I'd just finished praying when this handsome fellow caught my eye during the sport fest. (So much for my desire not to be distracted!) I didn't believe in love at first sight until that time. It was his gentleness that caught my eye. I was hoping for common friends to introduce us but nobody did.

The last day of the retreat, my roommate and I came in late for the last session. We decided to sit at the back, when the speaker asked us to move in front. As we were walking to the front, someone else was walking alongside us. It was the same guy! We landed at the same time on the same table. It turned out that my roommate knew him from college so she introduced us. I learned that his name was Michael. That was the last time I saw him because he was based in another province.

Six months later, I saw Michael again in church. He had moved to the city. However, I learned that the reason he moved was because he was about to be engaged. Still smarting from that revelation, I came upon a passage in the book of Esther while reading the Bible on the morning of December 13. It basically said that the 13th day of the 12th month – the day of mourning – will become a day of celebration. I didn't know what it meant exactly, except that it was a message from God to me. I cheered myself up and went bowling.

I had all but forgotten this when two years later, on December 12, I was invited by friends to dinner. Michael was there and we were reintroduced. Dinner extended until the wee hours of December 13. We hit it off as friends. As our friendship grew, it felt weird to discover that he had all the qualities in my list! I also learned that he and his fiancée broke up when she went abroad the year before. I was startled when he casually mentioned that the girl flew on December 13 of that year.

After three years of solid friendship, Michael took me to his hometown and asked me to swim with him at sunset. While we were wading in the water, he laid down his intention to court me. A couple of months later, he took me to the island resort where we met. And there, at the session hall where we first sat together, he asked me to be his wife. We've been happily married for three years and now have a baby daughter.

Jennifer Y. Caspe-Cocuaco

http://www.rdasia.com/true-love-stories?page=6

Stay or leave?

I don't have much to say,
This is what the state I want to clear,
Left doesn't mean I care nothing,
Left doesn't give me a trophy,
Left doesn't mean I GAVE UP on you.

I left because you never to stop me,
I left because you don't have guts to step ahead,
I left because you made things numb,
I left because you watched while I'm leaving.

If there's a chance,
I still wait for that moment,
You ask me again to stay,
I will stay forever with you.

Seal and love,
Jessica Chloe.

Scary things in me

Lately, I've been thinking soo MANYYY thingsss!
I looked back what I had left...Oh gosh! I missed everything goods in my life..

I missed then I become scared..Scared to fall in love again (Woow)
Don't blink your eyes yet..
This is not kind of phobia issues (-,,-)
Wanna know the reason?Here, let me present my findings (not a thesis actually haha!)


1. I am afraid to love WRONG person.
2. I had love SOMEONE for a long time (half of my age).
3. Would he LOVE ME like I do?
4. LEAVE WITHOUT GOODBYE sucks me.
5. (I think I still afraid to give all my heart)

Despite all the reasons, I still have the feeling being in love again but...HE (not she hehe) have to be very very very dare to take the Challenges...I just scared darling.

Voice Out!!

What I mostly listen to now is " I Wonder If You Hurt Like Me " by 2AM...Im not into Korean Song but this song sounds differently...Because of they have strong voice which I don't see in other korean band..(bukannya saya salu tengok lagu korea pun haha)...but this song have that voice out !!

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